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Stan "Gannon" Hester's Journal  Well, well well! Happy New Year 2004 everyone!! Shit my last entry was in 2001. Wow. I have changed so much in the three years that most people knew me. I'm living in beautiful Miami, Florida. I work in restaurant management and have a blast! My 22nd birthday is coming soon. Nothing special. Got my first tattoo last year. A tribal design under and around my navel. get's good comments at the beach. South beach is fun to go clubbing at every now and then. very expensive. 12.00 for a martini. ouch! 50 dollar covers and too much plastic surgery running around. Not much to talk about at the moment since I'm tired. I'll be sure to update this often. I'm in the market for a new car right now and I'm gonna go check out an Audi this weekend with my boyfriend Geoff. He's a great guy and he's very savvy when it comes to buying cars. I enjoy my time with him. I think I'm gonna cook dinner at his house this Saturday and invite friends over then go to the Cathode Ray Club for a drink or two. Oh well y'all have a good day and keep in touch!! I haven't written forever. Been too busy. I have so much to say but nt enough energy to write. Went to the club last night and had fun. It was way packed for a saturday night. Saw all my cute little girls from Olympia there. We all rolled balls. Yay! I drug Nathan along so we chilled all night long. I really enjoy spending time with him. He is the perfect gay-straight man. He's straight with all the cool gay qualities to him. (Minus the drama) He is so selfless and comfortable with himself. He doesn't care about being seen holding my hand or kissing me on the cheek. I wish all straight guys were as understanding as him. I started a new job at the Sweet Factory as an Assistant Manager. It's way fun. A little less of a prestigious job then The Body Shop but I am management and I make 3 times more. I can finally start saving up for our house and my motorcycle. Well it's 3:30 am and time for bed! Current mood:  rejuvenated.
well, well, well. I haven't written forever. I guess I fell off the face of the earth for a while and it took me a while to crawl back up. So I guess I have a lot to say but just don't want to take the time to say it all so I will just type an abridged entry. So I had to work in Salem last week cause the Manager got fired. That was pretty cool. It was a hellacious commute but I had fun working with a great group of employees. I've started dating my ex, Austin, again. I'm happy. I really missed him. I hope things work out. Well...I have to work tomorrow and I get paid on Friday!!!! Whoo Hoo! Well night everyone and i Luv Ya All! Well...I'm Tired as fuck today. I worked from 11:00 am - 4:00 pm. Ended up going to lunch with Jer. Yay for me! I came home and cleaned then pampered myself. Iain and Chris took my car to get smokes and Amber came over to visit. She's a fuckin' rockstar! The smokes just showed up and I'm very happy. =) Ericka made my day better when I came home. She always does! =) Shawn might be coming over. I hope he brings Cara. She's the funniest person! Jer should be calling soon. He said he would be home at 8 and now it's 10. >:| I accomplished stuff yesterday and didn't get a chance to type anything. Iain and I went to P-Town to get stuff from the Employment office and we went to Trader Joes for Groceries. Shawn and Cara came over while Chris, Iain and I went Tanning. It was nice to be able to spend time talking with Ian since he is always busy at the club and I don't get to really dance with him anymore. Snaggy also brought us a dead mouse this morning. Chris was screaming like a woman. It was pretty funny. Well... I'm tired and I have to work tomorrow. Nighty Nights!! Current mood:  devious.
Well...I woke up at 9:00 pm. Yes. That's PM! I had dropped twice last night. It was the best roll in my life. Iain and Chris went a little gung ho with the favors. Let me just say that we need a break. I had fun at the club last night. I talked to cool people and became better friends with a very cute aquaintance. Whom I might say asked me for my number. So we'll see where that goes. I woke up in time to go to the club tonight and come home. Gee...can you guess what I did at the club tonight? You got it!! I was on the couch the whole night being a complete e-tard.Got home and popped in my binky. I hate gum. Leaves my mouth feeling like shit. We then went to Denny's and barely touched our food. Erica and I had our hands over our mouths (hiding the binkys) all night. lol. My brain is ready for bed. I think I'm gonna end this here. I stop and sit on the bench. Fantasyland far behind. Close my eyes and try to get my 4 hours of slee....... Current mood:  bitchy.
It's 3:30 pm. Fuck. Half the day is wasted. Oh well...I plan on being totally fubar tonight and nothing else matters to me at the moment. Gonna go get the money my grandpa wired me and party the fuck on tonight. I feel bad that I get so dependent on him for money. He's sent me over a thousand bucks this last 2 weeks and I've blown it all. I feel cranky today. I guess I overslept. I feel like I have nothing to say right now. I guess I haven't done jack shit yet so I don't have much to say. I woke up and I smoked then I typed. Oh well. I'll have a butt load to say when I get home tonight. =) I stand in the doorway...still uncertain to what lies ahead. Do I enter?? So I start my little writing session with: What the fuck is up with stupid shallow tards! People need to just get the fuck over it man. I'm sick of being everybody's little superstar. The boy people love. I'm really not as innocent and sweet as people portray me as. I have a 175 IQ level. I can be cunning and manipulative. But I care about people way too ,uch to hurt them. So I usually behave myself. I think I let people get the best of me and see my self lower then someone else. I shouldn't. I guess I spent too much of my life being pampered. The little rich bitch who had everything handed to him on a silver platter and evian water to wash it down. I fucking regret it. I want people to stop being sugar coated to me and nice when they don't like me. I think they are scared that all my friends will retaliate. Only Rayne drove me to that point. He now can't go anywhere without almost having the shit beat out of him. Oh well good ridddance. Well I probably should stop being so damn bitter and focus on the finer points in life. I guess it's hard when I view my life as one big fuck up. Oh well. It will all get better soon. I near some entry ways..Should I enter the doorway to Tomorrowland or Fantasyland. Fantasyland seems more tempting to me. Especially @ $20 per hit. Oh well..I'll soon make a decision. So another shitty night has come to a bitter end. I met a few new people tonight. It's great. Austin was being sarcastic and wondered why people get so excited to see me when I walk in the door. They get jumpy and hapy and run up to give me a hug. What can I say? I guess I'm well liked. I'm glad I have a lot of friends and people that actually respect me as a person and see beyond my cute boy face or saying hi to me just because they saw me dancing or in a particular magazine. (We won't name any names) I'm not so sure why some people are afraid and intimidated by me. They just don't know me. I always have my friends Jason & Iain. They know me the best and have been with me through my best and worst times. I'm so grateful for them and I love them dearly. I have come to the decision that I need (actually change that to want) a boyfriend. I'm not sure what draws these shallow assholes to me but I need to find someone I'm compatible with. All the cute guys I meet have major cases of loser or have a defunct personality to them and the really nice boys I get bored with or just lose my attraction to. Men suck! There are 2 guys that I like. One person I think likes me and sometimes gives me mixed messages and the other one I'm too scared to tell how I feel. I have come close but always seem to fuckin chicken out at the last moment. We have become closer friends lately and I'm scared of fucking it and being rejected. Do mirrors lie to me? Am I that unfit? Or do people think I'm too fragile. Abby told me one night how beautiful I was and I had a flawless personality. I will never forget those words. I'm at Jase's house and people want to go. Another Party at Stan's! Whoo Hoo! So I stop at tree.The bark feels nice against my sore back. I close my eyes and drift into an unsteady, restless sleep. Current mood:  discontent.
So the night is young and I'm off to do my usual weekend ritual of going to the club and putting up with the same old faggy girlie trash that think that they way too good to grow balls between their legs. My best buddy Iain is hanging out. I can't really figure out why my roomate Erica is upset with me. This girl is a fuckin diva. She is beautiful in so many ways. I thank the world that I got to meet her. I don't know now what I would do without her around. She makes my day better whenever I see her and she doesn't even need to say a word. I'm getting ready to go out and meet some friends. My other roomate Chris is gona at the club with Shawn. Shawn came over with some fish water so they drank that with coke before they went to club. He's always so rambunctious. I don't know where he gets that energy. Oh well.. He's still the man and he's a superstar. So about me... I work at The Body Shop. Yay for me!! I love my job and have to coolest coworkers. They mean the world to me. I never have a bad day at work and I never mind staying late. I have a fan club. The Express girls. Yes for me. Hayley (my boss) she's a fuckin badass. She has all the Sharper Image Boys creamin their shorts over her. Lucky bitch. Oh well.. I probably should get a move on. I'm meeting Jeremiah (cute boy from Fossil) at a rave tonight. I have a major crush on this boy. From what I hear from friends he likes me to. So hopefully all goes well. Will tell. I now approach a fork in the road. Left or Right?? I will choose my path wisely......... |
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